New Year Same Old Me
First let’s get the formalities over with … Happy New Year! Ok now that we are done with that we can move on. Ok so 1, this is not going to be your happy, be on the positive side of the new year. This is going to be me ranting yet again about how I am sick of the whole “new year new me” or whatever, you know what I am talking about. I just love to see all these memberships pop up during late December early January where you need to sign up now to get your exclusive new year new you offer!
You have your gym memberships of course that people will stop going to in about a month or two. Then you have your healthy meal kits to help you transform into your best self, but in reality, you can just make that all at home at the fraction of a cost. Yes, I know that for some people they don’t have time to go grocery shopping and whatnot, so I get that. And I am a hypocrite because I did have one of these meal box subscriptions myself and I did really enjoy it, but I was using it because I was lazy and couldn’t go to the grocery store because of my severe anxiety. But this is where my next point leads. The predatory marketing tactics of these better yourself kits and memberships.
Once again, I am just a girl ridden with anxiety and computer so don’t take everything I say too seriously, I am just giving my opinion on topics that I find interesting.
- I am so nervous that I will be sued or something idk I should also mention I have paranoia issues
Coming from someone who has struggled with their mental health almost their entire life I can tell you from my experience that you can’t just “fix” yourself overnight with some membership or exclusive offer. These ads are always showing people who are down and sad about themselves and where they are in their lives, then magically after they ate this keto 100% grain free dairy free gluten free protein bowl, they will suddenly have the energy to do anything and everything. This is what they were missing their entire lives (not the need to be understood or unconditionally loved or you know anything like that) And OMFG don’t even get me started on those dumb ass fit teas, these honestly need to be looked into more or just regulated more with the influencer sponsorships. Because as a young girl with body dysmorphia growing up seeing fucking skinny ass Kim Kardashian promoting this fit tea and saying this was all you needed to look exactly like her… bitch stfu you have a whole makeup team, fitness coach, plastic surgeons, and the best of all, money (wow sorry got a little heated there). And as much as I hate to admit it, I still have to remind myself that everything I see on social media is fake.
These companies prey on us and our insecurities. And some of you are probably thinking to yourself “yes, this is nothing new” and yes your right, this is nothing new. But why are people still falling for it and getting roped into these memberships and deals? Because we will always take the easy way out. Myself especially, having the worst motivation issues will go for the premade kit that is clinically proven to make me happier over the coming head to head with your emotions and really tackling them. Why would I confront my emotions when I could just buy this silly little tea that I can drink all my problems away with.
Unfortunately, I was one of those people who would for sure make next year my year, but somehow that year was actually worse than the year prior. I really do think the universe hates me but once again that’s an article for another time. I can remember from the time I was in middle school until first year of college where every year I would have a personality change, a diet change, style change, etc. I would be watching YouTube videos on how to make this year yours, stalking influencers Instagram pages wondering what I could do to be just like them, basically gaslighting myself into thinking I won’t be sad next year. But as I got older (in my 20s) I have come to realize that I wasn’t trying to make myself better, I was trying to become those people on my screen. I didn’t like who I was, so I just became someone else. I didn’t even know myself, which sounds so cliché but I am being serious. I didn’t know how to express myself or be and act how I wanted too because I was too scared of the people’s reactions around me. I also had some restrictions placed upon me from my parents that made it hard to really be me but again … another time.
It took some time, but I finally came to realize that if I wanted to make this year my year I had to want it for myself and not for the people around me. I am still struggling with it all and really trying to understand myself and seeing a therapist to help me work through it. I did have many therapists growing up, but I was always mad at having to go see them (just my immature ass) but since I never wanted to make myself better these therapists didn’t do anything for me. It was only when I truly wanted it for myself that I started to see some progress. I don’t want any of you who may have seen a therapist in the past and it didn’t go well to just write off all therapists. I am also not saying that this is what you need to do now to make this year your year. I am saying give it some time, you will get there eventually. I mean it took me some 20 years to even realize what I was doing wrong. Believe it or not… you don’t have to be someone new next year. It’s a new year and the same old anxiety ridden me.